There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18 (NIV) [Perfect - has not grown into a sufficient understanding of God's love. Amplified Bible]
Fact: The shame, fear, and guilt I experienced in childhood and carried into adulthood affected my ability to parent my children.
Read More“. . . I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances . . . I can do all things through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:11b & 13 (NIV)
The year 2020 challenged me in extreme ways. As a CSA survivor living with Complex PTSD, I am frequently triggered by the threat of the unknown. So, the seemingly sudden stay-at-home order issued in March overwhelmed me with anxiety.
Read More. . . be very happy when you are tested in different ways. You know that such testing of your faith produces ENDURANCE*. James 1:2b&3 (GOD’s WORD®Translation) *All Caps added by me.
My greatest fear has always been the fear of rejection; all other fears have stemmed from that. As part of his grooming process, the primary sexual abuser told me that he was “the only one who loved me.”
Read MoreIn peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O LORD, will keep me safe. Psalm 4:8 (NLT)
To be honest with you, my emotions toward God have always been conflicted. Even though I now believe He loves me unconditionally, and I’ve learned to trust Him in so many ways, this Scripture is a hard one for me to digest. I mean, if He let others sexually abuse/assault me as a child, how can I guarantee He won’t let it happen again?
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